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Tendrils

by Kevin Healey

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1.
You’re never in-between You’re only one or the other side It’s like you’re two minds split in the middle And they just won’t compromise I wish I had the nerve To leave them both behind Cause when I try for resolution Every argument gets uncivilized But my will gets weak when I look to the skies And every raindrop tear is a thunderous cry In clouded eyes And memories flood like mud in veins ‘Til the needle spins on this compass chain And I’m lost again Seems I’ve been here before I guess I’ll never learn I’ve spent a lifetime building up bridges That you find so easy to burn So brick by brick, I’ll lay it down And stone by stone I’ll build it back up From the ground I’ll never shed a raindrop tear in vain I’ll never get lost in skies again As inch by inch, every lesson learned Becomes a brick in a bridge You can cross but you never can burn It won't burn Bridges don't burn Bridges don't burn Don't burn
2.
Judge cringes on his judgment day Cries, “Lies! I’m being cheated! No, no! Don’t take my prize away I will not be defeated!” He sings a sad song “I’ve been done wrong!” But he’s long gone ‘Cos no one here believes it Dick demonizes Doctor Jane Clueless clown, angry seething Praise the heroine who peels away Black veil of privileged thieving It’s gone, gone Been there too long Gone, gone We’ll not be mistreated
3.
Funny the wiser voices know To choose as their favorite A spot besieged by noise Tucked behind dividing walls Safe from the coming-in crowd Whose outgoing charms are Warm as milk but over-sweet Hear the whispered virtues of—many things Of coffee black and strong Or forty-year-old wine And others still as yet unheard Buried beneath the din of ink-skinned servers’ Steam and grind Once I heard a story: A Zen master spoke near open windows He chose not to pause as planes passed by For one in the crowd, his muffled words Triggered the insight for which all had come: Words, at last, are not the thing; We’ve come here to be, and not speak. Today I am an audience of one Grateful for the steam and grind A jet-loud noise that buries words Just long enough that you can hear One sweet thought arise like steam: “Let’s just be here for a while.” Suddenly this noisy spot Now oddly wise Becomes my favorite, too.
4.
A Mason Jar 04:20
In a would-be hipster’s mason jar I keep big tears I’ve shed in your small name And I will not tell you why they fell Or how their brine had stung my eyes Weary in their admiration Of your pride in stride and posture Your tight, unsmiling lips And patience with each offer As you gently refuse this Sweet gift from this sour giver And leave it wrapped and ribboned For me to consider Here it comes again I’m shedding big and bigger tears And amazed to see how unfazed you are As every lesson learned Cracks the dam of pent emotion Til I’ve shed enough to fill in a mason jar In mason jar In mason jar With this un-hip beggar’s jar in hand My back all tired, but straight as yours And my tight lips, too, unsmiling As I muster now my own quiet patience And wait for these eyes Generous with tears To drop their alms of salted coins In here Here it comes to end As I toss it all to shatter And your gaze betrays how amazed you are As every bitter tear Turns to pond, to lake, to river Til there’s far too much to fit in a mason jar In a mason jar In a mason jar
5.
When timeless souls get stuck in time they hesitate I know—I’m every step surrounded by some Who keep such secrets tucked away When timeless souls get stuck in time they hesitate and second-guess themselves Sometimes I sit and think of ways to get un-stuck I’ve got ideas, but bite my lip because A stuck soul sometimes wants to stay When timeless souls get stuck in time they hesitate and second-guess themselves I lay asleep meanwhile in dreams of bonfires burning fueled by stars I dream of dancing, warmed by flames And skies of glowing constellations As sweet exhaustion gifts you sleep I’ll rise in waiting—tell me when you wake Meet me beside the bonfire trees To toss time’s ash like scattered seeds All souls are timeless and All souls get stuck in time Get unstuck
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Every beast is unique Every creeper has mystique I've checked them all Smoking cigars And driving punch-drunk cars While sniffing ethanol Upper lip—hip Unaware of the implications Ground is charred With no regard For the laws of nations Truth revealed In letters sealed If you have the patience We all recall The silent fall The ancient conflagration Riding high on cycles virtuous And hikes you take to church no less It makes you tall On a scale of one to ten Get to the end and back again Behind the wall Upper lip—hip Unaware of the implications Ground is charred With no regard For the laws of nations Truth revealed In letters sealed If you have the patience We all recall The silent fall The ancient conflagration
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Tendrils 05:07
“Tendrils,” he said. I put out long tendrils to see if someone latches on And if they do “You feed it,” he said and gestured as if pumping fuel into flames I do, I do I smile at this thought: some sinister ploy Ah, but then again, maybe it’s true Forgive him, I think. See, once when I asked, “Are you the Giving Tree?” his stunned silence deafened us two I do, I do I do put out tendrils I do so to climb Get on, get out your own tendrils Or you’ll only get sucked into liars’ Get on, get on with your life Or just suck it up, lay down, and die Get on, get on with your life No, tendrils aren’t tentacles Viciously preying In occupied octopi grounds No, tendrils reach carefully Craftily craving to climb Toward sun-bitten clouds What tentacle’s trapping you now? Get on, get out your own tendrils Get on with it, on with your life Get on, get on with your life Get on with it, get on with it Get on Get on with your life Get on Get on
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Poor pop-o-matic prophet prone Flesh and bone automatic Lifeless but not dogmatic Rumors abound, beyond mounds we'll be free I cannot see horizon But bought lies with my eyes, son Cunning demon come to heal, out the door Under the floor, did reveal The Russian author’s spiel Go to work in the buff with my briefcase To the rat race monolith Buying lying fact or myth
9.
In a parallel place where I’m brave and I’m sure I’ll stroll blazingly by dropping flowers at your door And that glint in my eyes, well it’s just what it seems But no one seems to mind cause it’s all just a dream Here though I’m different—all feckless and flawed As if stoned on a stage with no fans who applaud And I can’t bring you flowers, so I’ll crack jokes instead To amuse while disguising a dream left unsaid Well the coffee here’s bitter but it somehow seems sweet And I trip past your door on my stumbling feet So I’m grateful for you, and your brilliance and grace Pay no mind to the parallel lines Of tears on my face There’s a parallel place where I’m brave and I’m sure And I don’t need to hide behind laughter no more And that’s where I’ll stop stumbling and find my own feet It’s somewhere on the horizon Where parallel lines seem to meet

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Recorded on a Yamaha MW10 console in Cubase LE and Cubase Elements 9.5.

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released July 19, 2018

KH: vocals; bass, electric, and acoustic guitars; keyboards; drum loops and percussion

Lyrics for "The Ancient Conflagration" and "Automatic Prophet" by Charlie Weber. All other lyrics by KH.

Cover art for Tendrils courtesy of Bri Custer at bricuster.com

Cover art for Timeless Souls Hesitate courtesy of Leigh Fraser at leighanita.com

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Kevin Healey New Hampshire

singer-songwriter and professor of media studies based in the New Hampshire seacoast region.

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